beggar master / prayer flush : aaron dilloway
I have a photograph of Aaron Dilloway that was taken by my friend on November 11th 2004; the night Wolf Eyes played here at the Echo. The photograph is awkward because it’s of his backside, shoe, and reel to reel mostly. At some point during the show, my friend made her way to the side of the stage, climbed atop some table, and took the picture. This couldn’t have been an easy feat considering that the club’s walls were quaking & the audience had turned into a ocean of people with their fists pumping in the air. I know she did it because she felt she had to, and even though it doesn’t really capture the hypnosis he performed that night- I’m glad she did it anyways. If anything the picture serves as proof of the kind of performer that he is & the effect it has on the people who see him play.
I tend to get grief about truly believing some of the people I write about are special and do ‘this’ better than others. And maybe I could stand to be more eloquent & less obsessive, I guess it’s all objective.
My heart breaks at the thought of even trying to suffocate my excitement. Let me be the one to not keep it brief. I believe it deserves in depth analysis and high praise, lots of it too. Let records like these continue to keep me up into the next morning, trying desperately to articulate the thoughts spilling over and flooding out.
What I was trying to say is that I think Dilloway is special & does this better than most.
Beggar Master not only serves as proof of this but also as a starting point for what I feel is going to become a body of work that will continue to speak for itself.
Beggar Master starts off by working into you like a rusty scalpel; with just enough sharpness to cut you deep but not enough to keep things quick thus minimizing the pain & ultimately robbing you of the true experience. The sharpness is a temporary veil for the uneven rumble that follows & churns along, turning into a high pitched tone soon after. And even that is only given a moment to be so cleanly piercing & precise- the sound quickly becomes ‘sounds’ that move along by repeating in a pattern & picking up texture & grime as they go by. This is the death of that tone with the high pitch, in its place a feverish one is born and it infects everything in its path from there on out.
Beyond that is a factory tour- or what’s left of a factory that long ago was abandoned & subsequently forgotten. Machinery runs on clotted oil with a chemical make-up that’s mostly toxic by now. You are hearing conveyor belts whose rolling mats have long ago worn away & have left bolts grinding into gears and other metal parts. Nothing is shrill sounding but instead it’s heavy and looping. With increases in speed you hear rusted over wires cook into an electrical fire and pollute wildly. Even the slightest sounds are magnificently congested & dense.
When waves of sound tower and wash over you here they’re not waves but instead sludge-like ripples. They leave you heavy & coated in a murky film. Beggar Master is basement brewed & swamp soaked. It is layered & double-dipped; the moss has grown over but the composition & construction are not obscured as a result of this. Underneath every floor or sound laid down are details that still come through & a rhythm you can feel.
One last power surge and the sound is sucked shut.
Oh my, Prayer Flush…
Play this as loud as you can. In the middle of some nameless field or an asphalt lake with only those beams that connect all that wiring and nothing else around. A tunnel would be magnificent for this kind of thing as well.
Prayer Flush has a heavier hand, g. A swooping hand d-d-dripping in lighter fluid, ready to cup your face & cover your mouth.
To each set of ears their own but I can hear voices here. Voices seeping up through rotting floorboards and coming through like stretched out howls & yelps swelling with urgency.
Years ago they tried figure out what was making me so sick by giving me multiple spinal taps without administering adequate pain medication- I wish this side of the record could’ve been playing right then, at the exact moment that the broomstick sized needle tore through the skin on the small of my back.
Everything sounds as though it is taking place inside of this self destructing funnel of sorts; unraveling wildly- Machine gun sprayed sound clips and long hissing screams bid you a sweet farewell.
Prayer Flush is simultaneously brutal & serene; and a multitude of other things I cannot even begin to properly describe.
Beggar Master & Beyond; there is something about all his work that is totally transcendent.
In the footage from his performance at Wooden Octopus you can see how he vaults into the experience with reckless abandon. The way a wire is inserted into his mouth & throat like medical tubing; causing his cheek to balloon out slightly, transforms a completely insignificant action into something with so much more weight. Hunched over in his trademark style, he lunges from this state of bad posture into spellbinding physicality. None of his movement looks forced but instead internal & uncontrollable. There is an almost awkward quality to how his limbs jerk in random directions. It is like watching a man try to exercise a third spirit out of his body, as if only movement that abrupt & carnal could come from a body possessed.
In those last few minutes of the video, Dilloway’s body is whipping from side to side and his facial expression is violently strained.
Unfortunately these observations of mine are based solely on this video and I can only imagine what the intensity of his performance is like in person. Luckily, I only have to continue imagining until March.
Beggar Master & Prayer Flush are both paired here with beautifully raw images. Sketches of dream dates. The artwork is also placed in their partnerships with the actual sound pieces perfectly. Beggar Master does feel like you’re being carried away; while Prayer Flush is like coming back for revenge.
This is a Hanson release, pressed in an edition of 300 & dedicated to the GUT EATERS. Although it’s already sold out from Hanson; I believe it is or will be available from a few distributors.
Aaron Dilloway will be performing at No Fun Fest this year. More about him here.


